NEVER INNOCENT

hey

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 13:12:59 GMT

i absoulutly love how people leave thing annoymous when i know exactly who they are by the spelling and wording such as fuller~ to u i dont care about u ne more i was a good friend to u and i did everything i could and i got stabbed in the back! u picked that loser asshole over your best friend!!! and u lied to me about it on homecomin the i see u at the mall with him wtf u know what dont even answer that cuz i dont care!!!! and how am i a whore it dont make sense i didnt know that you could be a whore when u didnt fuck ne one!!

hi

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 15:42:24 GMT

well this is gonna be my new journal since i never write in my old one ne more. so hi. well im in 4th and it is ok i guess. 1st hour way gay as hell like usual and 2nd was ok. i have a 95% in ecology suprising? ya it is for me to. the band concert is in a week and i have no shirt and no 1-2 inch heels with closed holes so the ones that i have will just have to do. they want us out of or house by the 15 and my grandparents have only been her 3 days and i am already going nutz!!! i couldnt even go to the store to buy ice tea she told me to make it myseld!! with what would u like me to make it with, cuz if i could do u think i would of asked to go to the store really now! its common sense!!! thank god mom is home sat!!!! they want to know every little detail!! and they dont trust us they are all like " YOUR ALOUD TO HAVE BOYS IN YOUR ROOM" its like ya where the hell is the trust, were not like angela!! we dont "get around". so ya well ill write later.

wow its been forever!!

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 15:42:01 GMT

wow its been a really long time since ive written in this and it is really odd!!! i cant believe that i remembered the password!!! so ya! me and michelle are ok again and that makes me happy!!! me and liz are also ok again and now that fuller is gone everyone is a lot better and less bitchy!! so it is all good! im movin soon im not to ~~whats that word~ about it but i get my big room in the basement and can actally have partys now so that is good! i think i will be back at anchor bay for my senior year though cuz i dont want to graduate from yale!my mom doesnt care as long as i can afford gas and all that good stuff! well im gonna go now before elliot comes over here so peace! FLORIDA FOR SPRING BREAK NE ONE?

ok

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 21:50:02 GMT

sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: excuse me miss fucking bitch.. you have no fucking clue do you?? totally blind is right.. you can't see when your hurting your own friends.. just like fuller.. me michelle krystal and fuller are friends.. get over it.. you and krissy can be happy together.. WE don't care anymore.. and you need to leave michelle alone.. she says u were ripping her a new ass hole? wtf did she do? nothing.. !!! I am glad you don't wanna hang out with me.. cuz when all u got is krissy then u dont' got her.. you will be alone and unhappy.. the way you deserve to be.. you think ur all bad ass.. yelling at me online.. wow.. ouch.. u really hurt me.. *not*
blindeyez87: u now what lix fuck u
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: i could care less what u two have to say anymore.. it doesn't mean anything to me .. i was stupid to be friends with eaither one of you.. your lying and decetful.. always starting shit with other people.. breaking promises.. fuck that.. who needs you
blindeyez87: i just talked to fuller and were fine
blindeyez87: this is all u
blindeyez87: i dont wanna fight with michelle and i have no reason to cuz i didnt do ne thing wrong ok
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: yeah well she don't like you .. truth.. because ur always screaming at her.. about dave wich is none of your business.. starting shit with her.. and it gets back to her..
blindeyez87: i have been friends with steph since 7th grade
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: and michelle is pissed at the world right now.. ur the one that was screaming at her
blindeyez87: and i dont know why u are in this middle of htis it has nothin to do with u
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: OBVSIOULY you don't understand where michelle is comming from do you?
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: yes it has everything to do with me.. as much as it has to do with you
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: she's in my fucking car... crying and screaming.. and comming to me.. cuz she don't have you.. it has everything to do with me
blindeyez87: ok liz
blindeyez87: u know what i am so sick of this bullshit.....
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: michelle hasn't seen stephanie in a year.. she was jelious..
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: she got angry
blindeyez87: i wasnt yellin at micelle
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: could u blame her?
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: well.. she says u were
blindeyez87: no i cant, but u know what thats not my problem!! steph said nothin to me about goin to micehlles
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: WE said nothing about it being YOUR problem..or don't you listen
blindeyez87: she didnt want to go to michelles she wanted to go to the game so i took her
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: apparently u don't understand what michelle is saying.. or what i am saying.. she was just jelious.. cuz u were hanging out with her "best friend" and she wasn't.. that she was spending time with you guys and not her..
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: that's not saying it's your fault at all
blindeyez87: and how is krissy oblivious?
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: stephanie is the one that's not returning her phone calls.. and doesn't wanna talk to her..
blindeyez87: ya cuz of how she is reactin steph dont wanna deal with it
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: krissy is oblivious at what she is doing according to michelle.. michelle says that she is taking her best friends away from her
blindeyez87: no, michelle isnt the same
blindeyez87: she did it on her own
blindeyez87: everything is about michelle and i am sick of it
blindeyez87: thats all ne one cares about!!!! poor michelle her life is such hell
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: yeah i know
blindeyez87: she makes all her personal life everyone elses problems and i am sick of carin
blindeyez87: she has never been there for me when i needed her most she would jsut tell me to get over it, and she called me her bf wE
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: i don't like the fact that if she isn't with dann she isn't happy.. and when i try to tell her things about my life and my problems .. she turns it into her problem.. but there's nothing that i can do about that.. and that's the way she is.. and you can choose to love her or not.. and i do.. and i will always be there for her.. because that's the type of person that i am.. she is always right.. and i have to back down.. i've learned with her .. all the bad things about her.. aren't nearly anything compared to the good things about her.. or that's how i feel anyways..i understand what ur saying
blindeyez87: so why are u bein a bitch to me
blindeyez87: sorry i told michelle the truth about herself but u know what either i did or she would never knoe
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: i told you that i wasn't mad at you.. at mcdonalds.. you never listen to anything that i am saying.. i said i wasn't mad at you and it had nothing to do about you .. you can tell michelle what ever u want.. but she won't listen ..to me.. or you or anyone
blindeyez87: i know
blindeyez87: and i dont understand why u were mad at krissy and not me it dont make since liz, we were both with steph not just krissy and it is so hypicritiacal for u to be pissed at krissm she didnt take steph away from michelle and she didnt take me away from micehlle i just needed a break from michelle, cuz all it ever is with her is dann,and i hate it, and ive told her so many times that it makes me feel uncomfortable cuz she has dann and i have no one and yet she still does it
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: i am not mad at krissy because michelle is mad at krissy.. i just don't like krissy's additude.. i can tell that she isn't sincere when she says things to me.. when i wave to her in the hall.. i see the look.. i am tierd of krissy.. everyone is tierd of krissy.. u remember how many times we didn't want her over at michelles.. cuz u were on of them.. it's not about oh well she's stealing michelle's best friends away.. that is not why i don't like her.. it's just her additude.. and i can not like her and not have a reason.. i just am done with krissy .. at least for a while until she stops running her mouth and lying about everything.. i can be mad at her and not at you.. if she did something and you didn't ..
blindeyez87: ok then why is michelle mad at me and not wanna be friends with me ...cuz she wont talk to me
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: i have no idea
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: i think she mad that u and krissy are all buddy buddy lately and have been ignoring her
blindeyez87: i havent been igonring her
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: well that's how it seems
blindeyez87: how come i always have to be the one to call her
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: because she doesn't care
blindeyez87: then why do i bother
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: cuz your a good friend to her .. and u don't wanna stop being friends with her.. over stupid shit
blindeyez87: no i dont but that doesnt answer my q:
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: i don't know jeni..
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: i give up
blindeyez87: ok
blindeyez87: i thought if i stayed away frome veryone allthis would be over with i guess i was wrong
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: i have so much shit going on.. i wanna kill my self.. i totally give up.. i am so done with everything.. i just got my fucking car takin away.. for a week.. no way to get to school.. and to 5th and 6th hour.. my family fucking sucks.. and it's fucking hot in my house.. i wanna die
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: the more u stay away from the people u are mad at.. the more mad that they get at you ..
blindeyez87: omg
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: my mom won't even talk to me
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: all the fighting is breaking my heart
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: and i do'nt know who to talk to .. cuz when i talk to michelle it's like i am talking to my fucking parents..
blindeyez87: im no mad at them they are mad at me
blindeyez87: not*
sTaRdUsTanDrEaMz: i don't know what to tell you

i dont hate ne 1!!!! like i said u all hate me and im tired of always being the one to care and try to fix things!!

hmm

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 23:18:13 GMT

well lets see last night was very what is the word.....interesting....i went to work from 12-4 came home and took a shower and then went to krissys....we went to blockbuster and got the movie a girl next door then went to wendys because liz told us that jen was gonna be there visiting dave and i wanted to confront her when i caught her visiting dave....and when me and krissy went to wendys we seen elliot and brandon and some of elliots friends...brandon and elliot came back to krissys with us and we watched the movie...liz and krystal kept callin my phone so we shut it off and they left like 6 voicemails and then aaron called and left a voicemail sayin i dont like u anymore and that was it! then krystal called me and was like do u still like aaron and i was like no....why and shes like no reason click..and me elliot brandon and krissy were like o ok....so ya...well me and elliot are i guess goin out or something i dont know for sure so ya....well gotta go mom needs phone

wtf

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 06:02:15 GMT

this is beging to get ridicilous aaron is mad at me for hangin out with ken!!!! and if he has such a problem with it why dont he tell me in stead of hiding it and acting like nothin is wrong!! so stupid!!

wow

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 18:46:16 GMT

i dunno what to do ne more...everyone is acting so different i dont understand....im moving and goin to a new school, i have to quit my job, and ya.....school kinda sucks, but ill live....im so tired...i dont think i like aaron besides as a friend ne more...i still love mike and it feels weird liking someone else that much so i think i will just stick to being friends and not let my self down and let my self get hurt again cuz i have my hopes up......and if something happens later on...(far from now) then it does just not now....so ya...

:(

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 18:17:39 GMT

all i ever wanted was someone i could talk to and trust...and everytime someone else needs someone to talk to and just listen im there but when i need someone to talk to and understand me no one will listen......i hate..i moved to anchor bay cuz i wanted to start my life over...make friends...until i moved here i didnt know what friends really where...and right about now i still dont think i do!!! ive been stabbed in the back by every person i know...besides maybe krissy...shes the only one who is honest with me and is willing to listen....and this is the kinda shit that makes me want to move to yale so maybe i can try starting over again..but who knows...maybe life will just fuck me over again....i hate this so much.....i cant take it anymore...every time i find something i feel that i can hold on to i loose...maybe i should just give up on everything and everyone and when they need me like i need them ill just say fuck it........

bored

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 15:32:19 GMT

well yesterday we went and talked to jennys mom and her moms like u guys dont understand...jenny is sick...she has an addiction and its dave....well me and everyone else still disagree we think jill needs to stop being a friend and start being a mother and beat jennys ass!!! jill is the mother when she says no it means no dont just walk out with HER car.....but ya im stuck babysitting ....look at this my sister thinks aaron wants her but he dont!! he even said hell no!!but look ne ways.....Man I dont want to say this but I do like Aaron and I am sorry Tiffany! It's weird. I stopped liking him then he starting saying all this like stuff to me and I was like o my I like Aaron agian. I think he might like me because he told me he wanted to lie next to me! Then he was all blowing me kisses!I was like wow!!

I think my sister likes Aaron though. O well I liked him first so i call dibs on him. Hehe!! I am so funny. ( well I think that). ..............

isnt that some bullshit well i think what she needs to do is grow up .....she needs to stop with the guys people already think shes a slut so i dont understand...but ya....

wow

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 06:34:51 GMT

well lets see.....i stayed home and slept in til like 12am and then i got on the comp and talked to aaron and kryssez.....(mostly aaron)...went to work and closed cuz aaron wanted me to....and right before we left work he took my phone and threw it in the trash an dnow it dont work!! just great a? then i went to michelles to spend the night to go to get our schedules tomorrow...fuller is still dumb...she tells us she picks dave over her friends and family and then has the nerves to come to my work and ask me if i want to come over and spend the night with her instead of michelle?? what the hell is that....u just picked ur asshole bf over ur best friend thats a load of bullshit jenny!!! and i know u will this....were all done bye the way!!! well yeah.....today was strange....

umph

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 16:03:46 GMT

well lets see....i like aaron and he said he liked me..but yet he feels bad for ken not havin a gf....so ya...and the i went to work and everyone got picked on it was fun..josh asked me if i would dike out with lyana if i got really drunk and if he could tape it and i was like ahh...NO and elliot and him were makin fun of each other on the head sets about likin it up the ass then josh randomly asked me if iwould have sex with him im like....NO..then me and elliot were like "hittin" each other and hes like what if i hit u right in the face really hard?....lets see i would hit my head on the lockers behind me and probally get knocked out..then elliot goes well then josh would finally et to have sex with u and ud never even know..i was like yeah i would cuz i heard that after the first time it hurts really bad..and elliot goes jenn....were talkin about josh andi was like ya true..and teh elliot goes now if that was me ud be like ahhh im so sore what did u do elliot!!!lol it was great..then aaron called me at like 2am and i talked to him for fo almost an hour...and then i went to bedd....and then jennifer called me this morining and told me she probally wont need me ne more and im like ok there goes all my money so ya..how fun

geezz

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 16:54:13 GMT

another journal wow.....maybe i will actually write in this one